Wicker Forest

by Jonathan Atkins

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I'm aware of what I'm doing. Of who I am. Of where I hope to be. I know I mess up a lot and make people angry and upset. I know I make up too many words, but I hope within the context you'll figure it all out. This album was for me and my transitions and my journey, but it's ultimately for you. Maybe so you know where I am, but probably because I need you to know I'm alright and that I don't need you.

This album is about dreaming. This album is about pushing through weird paths to get where you need to go. And this album is about doing what you love.

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released September 1, 2015

All songs written by Jonathan Atkins SOCAN, ASCAP 2015
Except 'Treetop' written by Steph Curtis and Jonathan Atkins SOCAN, ASCAP 2015

Jonathan Atkins - Vocals, Guitar, Bass, Drums, Piano, and Harmonica.

℗ & © 2015 Jonathan Atkins | Unauthorized reproduction, copying, and rental of this recording is strictly prohibited by law. All rights reserved.

If you think a song is about you, then it probably is. Whether it was written directly for you or not, it can still be your song.

Though not a lot of people physically worked on this project with me, I couldn't have done it without the support of the ever inspiring people in my life. Arizona, for being kick-ass and always around. Duder, you're wicked awesome! Steph for unintentionally (and unknowingly?) helping me through things and inspiring me with your path. YOU for not caring enough about my dreams (or your own) and seeking the path of settling which helped me figure out what I need to do. JoJo for actually pursuing this dream without letting anything get in the way! Seriously, it's people like you who inspire me not to stop. Corbin for being my number one fan. I continue to do this because of people like you! And God for being there throughout the years. These songs were created through countless hours of trial and error, and composed through moments of real life tragedy and happiness. You help me become the person I'm meant to be and to be there for people in need. As You, and my friends around me, are inspirations to me, I pray I can be a light and inspiration unto others in the same way.

-Jonathan Atkins

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"A singer-songwriter with a devastating ear for harmonies and a delicate touch with lyrics that slide perfectly into a horrid winter. There's a definite Celtic touch, but far sweeter than something like Mumford & Sons." - Andrew Fifield (Metro News)

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Track Name: Days and Days and Days and Days etc. (I)
I just wish I had something I could give to you,
But there's nothing in my pockets,
And a whole lot of hurt in my heart.

I just wish, somehow, you could feel this too.
Because sometimes I wish I could just fuck it,
And leave this whole country for a new start.

But I told I've been afraid, to move my own way,
And, for reals, I've been afraid, to move for days, and days and days and days.

But I've still got hope for it all,
But I've still got hope for it all.
But I've still got hope for it all,
But I've still got hope for it all.

I'm just wishing you'll understand what I've done.
But there's still letters in my pockets,
Explaining all my actions this month.

I just wish, somehow, they'd all find their way to you,
But I'm struggling to forget,
How you stripped away my passions like cotton to a moth.

But I told I've been afraid, to move my own way,
And, for reals, I've been afraid, to move for days, and days and days and days.

But I've still got hope for it all,
But I've still got hope for it all.
But I've still got hope for it all,
But I've still got hope for it all.

I could never buy you a string of pearls,
I had so little just to start,
But I had a big smiling heart,

But I've still got hope for it all,
But I've still got hope for it all.
But I've still got hope for it all,
But I've still got hope for it all.
Track Name: Rain Glistening and Its Musical Patterns
There are many things that lead me here.
There are many things that still take me by surprise.
But there's only one thing still keeping me in fear,
Still giving me chills every time it comes by.

There aren't many people who tend to walk outdoors when,
There's a tiny symphony of a million drops of water, and,
I've got this little voice in my head,
Singing dance with your friends, baby dance with your friends.

And there are millions and millions of reasons why I'm right here.
There are trillions and billions of rain drops conjuring patterns around my ears.
And there is light being spread from the water above my head,
And there are millions and trillions of reasons why our cheeks are flushed red.

You used to hold me in your gentle arms, and spin around with me,
As melodies came swiftly pouring splash around our feet,
And you'd tell me that you love me in a funny voice you do,
But now it's only me on these burdened, empty, wet streets.

And there are millions and millions of reasons why I'm right here.
There are trillions and billions of rain drops conjuring patterns around my ears.
And there is light being spread from the water above my head,
And there are millions and trillions of reasons why our cheeks are flushed red.

All I can think to myself,
is at least the rain smells wonderful.
and all the colours are nice,
At least the rain smells nice.
Track Name: Wicker Forest
Time slows down and out among the trees,
It's been a long time since we had seen leaves.
The snowbanks can't claim our forests for long,
But they'll still hint at us with a few more songs.

I've got soul, and hope, and I've got hope and soul,
And I'm not exactly sure if I'm yet in control
There's always this meeting in the forest, where I'm not allowed,
But I'm the guest of honour, so hell yes I'm going down.

I'm not sore from walking all alone,
I'm just wrecked from laying on the ground too long.
But there will be a bed of dandelions below me
Underneath the tall, wiltering wicker tree.

I've got soul, and hope, and I've got hope and soul,
But I'm still not sure if I'd rather scream out rock and roll,
There's always this meeting in the forest, where I'm not allowed,
But I'm the guest of honour, so hell yes I'm going down.

I've got secret goods down in the woods,
I've got secrets for yuh, inside the wicker forest.
And there's a small part of me that's still enchanting to my heart,
So I let that bit part die and find a way to restart.

I've got soul, and hope, and I've got hope and soul,
But I haven't got a damn stupid single fucking goal.
There's always this meeting in the forest, where I'm not allowed,
But I'm the guest of honour, so hell yes I'm going down.

I've got soul, and hope, and I've got hope and soul,
And I'm not exactly sure if I'm yet in control
But I'm still not sure if I'd rather scream out rock and roll,
But I haven't got a damn stupid single fucking goal.

There's always this meeting in the forest, where I'm not allowed,
But I'm the guest of honour, so hell yes I'm going down.
Track Name: Right Here
we sure will feel this in the morning,
when the sun's coming up.
We sure will get lost in ourselves,
But for now could you take my cup

Lay me down right here, mmm,
Lay me down right here mmm,
I coulda sworn I was getting sober,
When you handed me a beer.

G C F E F C Am F C F E F C
I'm trying so hard not to think about it,
I'm spending all my money on trying not to think about it.
But I'm right here right now,
I'm trying so hard not to think about it,

We could lay down in the streets,
I'm pretty sure that's where we are,
We wouldn't be obsessed with ourselves,
Only the bright dying stars.

So lay me down right here, mmm,
Lay me down right here mmm,
I coulda sworn I was getting sober,
When you kissed away my tears.

I'm trying so hard not to think about it,
I'm spending all my money on trying not to think about it.
But I'm right here right now,
I'm trying so hard not to think about it,

Lay me down, right here.
Lay me down, right here.
It's these little things that get me feeling,
Like there's nothing to fear.
Track Name: Treetop
I stay up until the birds are singing again. that's not new.
But it keeps me together besides I love the morning view,
Sometimes I see better things near,
And Sometimes I just hear what I want to hear.

But you knew that none of it was right,
But even treetops don't get it right,
They've got crooked branches, grow more imperfect in time,
But the birds don't seem to mind.

And If there's somewhere we can go,
Should we go,
Or should climb up top the tree tops,
And find out what the forest knows,
Because maybe we'd find more insight,
If we just stayed close,
And maybe we'd be better off,
If we keep ourselves from interposing here.

I stay up until the crickets stop singing love songs of the night.
I hear them all night, it gives me peace of mind,
To know something else out there gets why I do what I do,
And sometimes I like to imagine we've got the same day dreams too.

So I won't rest my head down even with heavy lids,
I'll stay dutiful to this night even when slumber bids.
It's this reality that most dreams only deafen -
like tangible lyrics that feel like heaven.

And If there's somewhere we can go,
Should we go,
Or should climb up top the tree tops,
And find out what the forest knows,
Because maybe we'd find more insight,
If we just stayed close,
And maybe we'd be better off,
If we keep ourselves from interposing here.
Track Name: Alright, It's Alright
Don't go wasting your time on petty things,
There's a whole vast world out there,
That will let you in with open arms and care.

And don't keep yourself stranded with broken wings,
The worlds got new angels again,
Rising up from ashes of pain.

Oh darling, it will all work out in the end.

And sometimes even I wish I could go back,
To being just kids,
When no one judged what you'd done,
And dreams were just what we did.

And and even I wish I could go back,
To day dreaming about all that could be,
But we're always torn down with something in our path,
We don't always get to look over and dream of what we see.

Oh darling, it will all work out in the end.

And sometimes even I wish I could go back,
To being just kids,
When no one judged what you'd done,
And dreams were just what we did.

And and even I wish I could go back,
To day dreaming about all that could be,
But we're always torn down with something in our path,
We don't always get to look over and dream of what we see.

Oh darling, it will all work out in the end.

Don't keep yourself stranded with broken wings,
The worlds got new angels again,
Rising up from ashes of pain.
Track Name: The Trees Looked Like Wolves
The trees looked like wolves,
But I'm not afraid.

There's something in the dark neck of these woods,
I see their bright peircing eyes, but I'm not afraid.

So please don't remind me,
Of where I am.
I know just where I'm standing.
Bringing myself here was the plan.

I used to see the wolves in the trees,
When I was afraid.

I'd make friends with the shapes in the trees
Back when I was afraid

So please don't remind me,
Of where I am.
I know just where I'm standing.
Bringing myself here was the plan.

If you called me to come back home,
I'd just tell you I'm already here.
There are faces in the woods, the trees look like wolves,
But out here I'm among friends.
Track Name: Hole In My Heart
Stop, stop the trees from blowing in the wind,
Stop the world from making me sick,
From spinning way too fast,
From making contrast,

Between me with you,
And me without you too.
I've got this gaping hole in my heart,
It'd be better to let someone tear it apart.

So if I let you in are you going to tear it apart.
If I let you into the hole in my heart.
I've got no expectations, just a big stupid hole in my heart.
If I let you in are you going to tear it apart.

The dead seasons will go,
We can't make the leaves grow,
But we can clear some paths in the snow,
And no one has to know, no one has to know,

That we've found a divide,
Between ourselves on the inside,
And everything happening on the outside,
And everything that's going on through the night.

So if I let you in are you going to tear it apart.
If I let you into the hole in my heart.
I've got no expectations, just a big stupid hole in my heart.
If I let you in are you going to tear it apart.

I don't mind all the places I've been,
I don't mind, if you'd rather take me down familiar sins,
No I don't mind, if there's somewhere your more comfortable,
Just as long as you take me with.

Stop, stop the wind from blowing through the trees
Stop the world from making me believe,
It's spinning way too fast,
And making contrast,

Between ourselves on the inside,
And everything happening on the outside,
I've got this gaping hole in my heart,
It'd be better to let someone tear it apart.

So if I let you in are you going to tear it apart.
If I let you into the hole in my heart.
I've got no expectations, just a big stupid hole in my heart.
If I let you in are you going to tear it apart.
Track Name: Sunshine
Hey, what are you doing?
We haven't talked in months.
It's been a while since i've seen your eyes,
Sparkle in the sun.

I haven't felt your warmth,
Rising up inside,
I forgot how you laughed,
And all the colours of your eyes.

I forgot our rhythms,
When your heart was near,
So won't come around more often,
Feels like I see you once a year.

It's been way too long my friend,
So would you reign down on me,
All your sunshine.
All your sunshine.
Reign down on me.

It's been a long dark winter,
For us both,
And all throughout that time,
We've seen so much growth.

And the spring time, my dear friend,
Oh how pretty it is right here,
So let me pick you flowers,
And place them in your hair.

It's always too damn long, my friend,
So would you reign down on me,
All your sunshine.
All your sunshine.
Reign down on me.

I forgot our rhythms,
When your heart was near,
So won't come around more often,
Feels like I see you once a year.
Track Name: Wishing We Were Ghosts
capo 6

There's a thought that one day
we will carry our mothers in a wooden box,
They'll be ghosts that we know,
And we'll still have our little talks.

And when I carry that burden on my shoulder,
Will those emotions be contagious?
Will people see strength in my eyes, or lack thereof?
Will they see that I feel weightless?

I've only got a few pictures of you,
And I'm afraid to let anything go.
Your spirits held in everything I do,
And in all the objects that I own.

Am I a carbon copy of my brother,
Or some strange version of my father,
Or am I really my mother's son
Or do I wish I were more like my sisters.

I've only got a few pictures of you,
And I'm afraid to let anything go.
Your spirits held in everything I do,
And in all the objects that I own.

So, here's to wishing we were ghosts,
So I won't miss any of you when you're gone,
We'd all be around in our dreamy states,
A ghost family finally home.

And here's to wishing I was a ghost,
So I wouldn't miss you so dear,
You wouldn't be gone before your time,
Because it's this only thing I really fear.

I've only got a few pictures of you,
And I'm afraid to let anything go.
Your spirits held in everything I do,
And in all the objects that I own.
Track Name: Miles and Miles and Miles and Miles etc. (II)
I stop to wonder if anything's worth it.
Because I can see for miles and miles,
And look down on million's of browning tree tops,
And know they'd be better off without our fake smiles.

And I stop to wonder why we call it life,
When I can't feel anything but breaking a part.
And I can't help feeling like it's not really life,
If the people around us die with broken hearts.

I've got my own little steps with these widening eyes,
And I've got the little things, it's the little things keeping me so high.
Oh you, you're the strength in my legs and the beating in my heart,
You're the words on my tongue and the comfort in my arms,

That let's me comfort other wandering souls.

I never saw much breathing,
But I've seen more gasping for air, when things aren't careful.
And seasons, alone, can bring tears to our eyes,
Not because of beauty, but because beauty is breakable.

I've got my own little steps with these widening eyes,
And I've got the little things, it's the little things keeping me so high.
Oh you, you're the strength in my legs and the beating in my heart,
You're the words on my tongue and the comfort in my arms,

That let's me comfort other wandering souls.

I stop to wonder why anything's worth it.
Because I can see for miles and miles,
And look down on houses full of people,
And see true genuine smiles.

I've got my own little steps with these widening eyes,
And I've got the little things, it's the little things keeping me so high.
Oh you, you're the strength in my legs and the beating in my heart,
You're the words on my tongue and the comfort in my arms,

That let's me comfort other wandering souls.
Track Name: Wolf & Moon
I've got secrets no one has ever heard.
I've got some stories I only share with little birds,
Even if I had the choice I couldn't share them with you,
Because my life seems to be stuck in the blue.

I've heard the word, but it's been jumbled in my head,
It's found itself a quiet place among the night and the mess,
And if you'd like to read it you'll need to prove that you're the shining moon,
I'm stuck in the blue, and I'm not leaving anytime soon.

But if you'd like to pull constellations around me,
And look into me with your wide mystified eyes,
Maybe you just know that I'll be howling soon,
When you rise up from the horizon and I sing

Ooooooooooou
Goodnight moon.
Ooooooooooou
Goodnight moon.
Ooooooooooou
Goodnight moon.
Ooooooooooou
Goodnight moon.

If there's anything I can share about anything I've seen,
It's that nothing's really fair and the earth's relatively mean.
And you can ask me all you want to share a piece of my spirit,
But I'm stuck in the blue, and that's all there is within it.

But don't leave me all alone because I won't tell you a story,
I rely on you for the bright midnight glory,
Sometimes I wonder what it's like from your view,
But I guess I'll just be stuck in the blue.

But if you'd like to pull constellations around me,
And look into me with your wide mystified eyes,
Maybe you just know that I'll be howling soon,
When you rise up from the horizon and I sing

Ooooooooooou
Goodnight moon.
Ooooooooooou
Goodnight moon.
Ooooooooooou
Goodnight moon.
Ooooooooooou
Goodnight moon.

If there's ever a reason you don't see me some season,
You'll spot me hiding in the woods,
Making a safe haven from the wild ravens,
That know I've found no food.

And I'll hide there and lay down,
With only dreams and no way to see you,
Because I always seem to be stuck in the blue,
Right now I'm really stuck in the blue,
And I'd really rather howl,

I'd really rather talk to the moon.
Ooooooooooou
Goodnight moon.